Back and Fourth

So if you are newly married, you may have heard the following question, 9685470156301189 times,

"SOOO When are you gonna have babies!?!?!"

 annoying right? HA! Well yes, technically I do think about babies alot, only because everyone and their dog is pregnant! I swear everywhere we go I see at least 10000000 people who are pregnant or have a kid with them. I know what you're thinking, "well duh, that's what people do, we reproduce." well is it so bad that maybe I want a baby, someday, but maybe I like waiting, and don't want one right now? Don't get me wrong, things welll happen, and if it happened we would obviously be ok and ready for one, but for right now my mind kinda goes like this.......

Aww, ya that looks fun!



o ya, nope, I'm out.

now that is what I want

o right, they cry, never mind.

Isn't that a beautiful thing?

then they do this,

and this

and this, in the middle of Wal-mart, ya, I don't think so

Ok so those may be extreme mind sets but I can't help it, I know some of you may be thinking well it's a wonderful thing, and I know it is and I really can't wait but for now I go back and fourth every other day and the little things change my mind, yes in the end I will want a kid, just not now,

until tomorrow,

then I will want one again, until I see one crying or a tired parent,

 I like sleep

 and sleeping babies

and clean hands, and things that can go to the bathroom by themselves and don't need changed,

but diapers are cute on their little bottoms,

they can't walk,

but when they do it's so cute,

but they smell,

sooo good :)

and they cry

but their pouty face is so cute,

and they cuddle,

when they're sick and then I get sick,

but then they want their mommy,

and I will want mine,

then Farmer will come home,

and they will jump in his arms,

and yell "daddy's home!"

ok so my heart just melted.... a little..

Future life? Ok. I am ok with moments like these

(now your heart melted)