8 month recap

8 Months?? Has it really been 8 months since I last blogged??
 I should just skip the apologizing and start blogging huh?

Well I left you with the cliff hanger of "We're Pregnant!"

Soo let me recap the last 8month for you!!!

Hottest summer ever, and pregnant, you get the picture.

9 days overdue, ridiculous.

26 hours+ of induced labor (wasn't painful) progressed 1/2 a cm in that whole time, and ended up in a c-section.


September 27, 2012 7:22pm
7lbs 8oz 21 inches of dark headed joy entered Farmer and I's world.






                                  TRIPP J

Learned his personality quickly, doesn't like naps,

 loves to be held, 

has a temper &

 a strong willed persona.

I really did want to pull my hair out at times

 but realized motherhood isn't always

 what you see on TV,

 but o so worth it.

Farmer melts my heart,  

& I once again fell in LOVE all over with him, 

but in a much different way.

Farmer learns baby talk and daddy duties

Looks like his daddy, 

eyes like his mommy

Baby Carpenter jeans and  button downs are our new favorites,

 but PJs and snuggles all day rock!

Bridesmaid in good friend Tiff's wedding,

just over 2 weeks after Tripp being born.

                                                     New Nephew Born. Oliver Lee

Mom goes back to work part time. Tripp goes to sister in laws for daycare!

 Holidays were wayyyy different with a baby, but too fun!

Halloween

Thanksgiving

Christmas

Best Buddy & brother got engaged, but not to each other, that's weird.

 Tripp loves to sit up and stand, with help of course.

Discovered his vocal cords and feet.

Has the best 

deep down belly

  baby giggle 

ever!

I never thought I could have the room in my heart for all the love that I have now.

HIS PLAN

Sometimes, things don't go as you plan but as HE plans.
Farmer and I couldn't be more excited and thrilled about our up and coming new addition to our family. Around September 18th we will become a family of 3.
Here's how we found out.

On the evening of  January 13th, yes Friday the 13th. I sat impatiently awaiting, what I thought would be negative results on that infamous stick in the bathroom. It sat on the edge of the tub, and I next to it just thinking. "it's negative, calm down, why do you get so worked up every time." "it will be ok if its positive, you can take that vacation later." "I  don't even have my student loans paid off yet"

Then it happened. That blinking, flashing hourglass stopped.
"Pregnant"
Plain as day.
I shook it.
Nope this can't be happening.
O MY GOSH.
:D
:S
HOLY CRAAAAPP
>insert *uncontrollable shaking*
*tears*
*more tears*
*slight hyperventilation*

I called Farmer
Told him I took a test, and he said "o? well it will be ok!"
I hung up on him.

He arrived home later and we began to wrap our heads around the idea of having a baby. We were both excited once the shock went away.

Its not that we weren't excited at first, just surprised.
 At the very moment when you take that test knowing you haven't really been expecting to take one any time soon, or within the next 6 months, it can be a bit shocking. Once we both wrapped our heads around the idea of having a baby, we were both excited and decided that we would much rather it come as a surprise then have to try and be disappointed, and we thanked God for giving us this amazing blessing.

So as almost 24 long weeks later have past, we are both extremely excited 

Farmer is smitten with pride and excitement. I am right there with him
We have just finished the construction on the rooms upstairs and our little cowpoke will have it made!

I can't believe the emotional roller coaster the past few months have been, but at the end of the day, I know that Farmer and I will be great parents. Farmer is going to be one of the best fathers I can ever imagine. He melts my heart the way he looks at kids now. He is learning an awful lot through this whole experience and as always has manage to keep me laughing and light hearted about the things I want to panic about. His questions are so hysterical when it comes to the needs of a baby and the way he thinks it is going to work out.

I can not wait to start our new adventure as parents. For now it is on to decorating and rearranging the baby's room & house a 1000 times until it seems just right! :)

Please ignore the random video of a father and son. I was going for the song only :)

Don't miss your life.

Two post in one day? I know what your thinking, sorry I am horrible at keeping up on this but the last post and this one are two very different things and I didn't want to spoil it by adding this random one on to it!

Anyway. New favorite song, Don't miss your life, by Phil Vasser I cried.
 You probably will too. Enjoy!

Muchness

There came a point somewhere in my life when I woke up one day and I felt as if something was missing. It wasn't until I was out of my funk, happily married, and saw Alice in Wonderland when I found the perfect way of describing what I felt I had lost in those darker days of my life. My Muchness. yes Muchness.
 I felt as if I was just living day in and day out. And some days I still feel that way. I had felt as if I had lost my spunk, I had been so emotionally numbed to things that life didn't seem as mysterious or fun as it was before.
 I met Farmer and that funk seemed to go away. I slowly found myself and what I enjoyed doing again. Farmer and I recently purchased a store. A shop more so. I work full time at the eye clinic then enjoy my hair doing on the side, and my mom and I are slowing opening the front part with all sorts of trinkets and things that make people happy. I love to shop at small town stores and browse.

I named my store Muchness, because I felt at a point in my life I had lost it, and with my store and my life now, I feel I have found it again. Muchness. Muchness. Muchness. People tease at the name and think its silly, but when you dissect Alice and Wonderland there are so many good to live by quotes in that movie, that Muchness finally filled that empty spot I so desperately wanted to have a title to.

 I lost who I was and what I wanted in life and my happiness, and now I have found it again. My Muchness, I hope to never lose it again.

Soo I haven't been on here in a long time. I will admit with the busy fall, holidays, and starting the new job I haven't really found time to do this often! I promise to update you soon with an amazing blog. :) Hope everyone has been doing great. Life on our farm has been busy, obviously. The new job is great and we bought a shop and remodeled it so I am now doing some hair on the side! That's all I have time to update you on for now!! Check ya later!

Mission Accomplished

Beautiful right?
You probably think Farmer is driving and I am just taking pictures?
Well.
You're wrong.
Yup, that's right, I am driving that bad boy.
All-by-myself!
I think I passed the official Farmer's Wife test.
Granted I left early to go get my hair done, may not have helped me.
But that is besides the point.
I still drove a tractor, mowed cornstalks, && didn't wreck it, hit anything or blow anything up.
Mission accomplished.
Pretty proud.

Things I knew...

In a world so full of hopelessness it is nice to have

 someone

who has hope in you. <3

Farmer has been the biggest blessing in my entire life, I truly look back and wonder what life was like without him. It seems so unreal that I went so long without knowing him, I feel as if it's been forever. We do have our ups and down, but when it comes down to it, we would be lost without each other.


Farmer:
Almost 3 years have pasted since you walked into that bar, &&
I knew from the first night we talked, I was a goner.
I knew I had found the one, the second night you came to that bar, when you said my name and flashed that croooked smile.
I knew the first time we kissed, that it would be our last first kiss.
I knew the first time you called me just to see how my day was, that you were forever going to be a gentleman.
I knew, I first time I slipped on the ice, and you caught me, that our lives would forever be full of laughter.
I knew, when you put your arm around me, that you loved me too.
I knew,when you first hugged me, that I never again would have to be scared.
I knew when I first cried to you, that you would forever take care of me.
I knew when you went to Arizona for those long 4 days, that I never wanted the thought of not being with you in my mind ever again.
I knew by the way you introduced me to your friends that you were a gonner too.
I knew that first time out with you, that you cared for me, and didn't care who knew it.
I knew when you said " I love you", that you meant it, and I did too.
I knew when you told me you were a little light headed in the jewlery store, that life would forever be fun.
I knew the first time I couldn't get ahold of you, that I never wanted to lose you.
I knew when you asked my dad for my hand, that he had found someone to take care of me that he trusted.  
I knew when I walked down the asile, that I was going to be happy forever.
I knew when I put the truck in the ditch, that you were most concered about me, not the truck.
I knew when you held Ellie, that you were going to be an amazing dad someday.
I knew by the way you called me just to make sure I am ok, that you would always make time for me.
I knew alot of things about you Farmer, what
I didn't know is how I could ever love you as much you love me, I guess I know now, and its so easy.

Happy 1 year Farmer. I am sure you will find ways to show me more things I know about you, in the many many years to come.

Then

Now

Then

Now

Farmer is such a charmer,

So strong

irreplaceable

caring

concerned

always looking out for what's best

smart

hard working

goofy

warm hearted

All your life you dream of who you will be with forever,

and when I finally met him,

he was sooo much more than

I ever thought I was even looking for.

Describing the love between

 Farmer and I is like describing how

 water tastes;

 completely impossible.

That crooked grin has made me laugh:

 more times than I can count

Seriously:

 made for each other

<3